time to let it go

 

It's amazing to me how easy it is to get caught up in things that have happened in the past. Whether it was a mistake we made or pain from the cause of others in our life.  Though these things will and should have an impact on our lives, we shouldn't hang on to it or let it define who we are TODAY.

We can move forward from it and hopefully learn and grow from it.

 

I don't know how long I have allowed myself to be consumed with some of the hurtful things of my past, but I got to the point of where I was fighting with myself to get away from it. It was haunting me all the time. I would have nightmares about it or even fears whenever I opened an email or checked the mail box, or even driving and feeling like someone was following me.  I got to the point of where I was so tired of living my life as if I had to prepare to fight for my life!

 

One evening I felt inspired to write down every detail that I can remember over a period of ten years.  It wasn't very easy at first, but once I got into it I found it to be very therapeutic and relieving. I made a goal for myself to have it ready by the time I was in Utah again with my family, which was this past summer. I wanted to have a burning party and share it with them.  I reached my goal and printed out all of those pages and I watched it burn to ashes! It was the greatest feeling and had such an impact on me that I no longer get caught up in those things.  I have confidence instead of fear.

 

Even though writing it all down and watching it disappear was really great, I know that's not the whole reason why I am now completely relieved from those feelings and emotions I once had.  I have learned the importance of the atonement of our Savior, Jesus Christ.  I was able to heal through this wonderful power and gift that is available to ALL of us. It's real and it works! Not only was I able to heal, but I was able to forgive and let it all go. The only way to get it is by wanting it and seeking it through prayer and being willing to do the work that may come with it.  It wont happen over night or even after a day. It takes consistency (as well as hope and faith), but I promise you the results are relieving and most rewarding!

 

You decide when you are ready to let it go!

 

PS Some really great books that I recommend are Believing Christ by Stephen E. Robinson; and

How Can I Forgive You? by Janis Abrahms Spring, Ph.D.