We are who WE choose to be

 

 

It's About TIME...

 

 

These two quotes were great reminders for me today!

 

Test of Faith

Sometimes the most difficult trials we are faced with is the test of faith. Faith is believing in things that we can not see, but know to be true. For me, it goes a bit deeper than that. It also means being able to put your complete trust in the Lord and submit to His will.
I've had situations where I have received direct guidance and instructions of what do to, what not to do, and how to proceed forward through some of the most difficult challenges of my life. I'm glad I can say that I was willing to do whatever I needed to, to see an end or an improvement in the situation at hand, or to find peace. However, I have also noticed in myself that I usually wait until my most desperate hour or time of need to seek for this guidance and help.
I have had to learn to allow people to help me, to allow myself to ask for help from the only one who knows how to give it exactly how I need it and when. Regardless of my stubbornness and determination, my Heavenly Father is still patiently waiting to bless and help me. He still loves me even when I fail to show my love to Him, by seeking Him last.
Recently I've had a remarkable experience!  After such an experience, I found myself doubting my ability to proceed with what is to come. This is one of the greatest blessings I can receive and I find myself fearing it rather than rejoicing it.  My faith has been lacking as I've tried to press forward in the direction I have been guided to go. Rather than having confidence in what my Heavenly Fathers knows I am capable of doing, I have told myself otherwise and believed differently. A part of me has also feared the mockery of others around me all because of their lack of understanding who I am and what I believe in.
I'm learning that faith isn't something that should come and go as times get hard. It needs to be constant and needs to be exercised every day. The choices in my life shouldn't be of the world and as they aren't, I need to step up and share why. I'm supposed to stand out and live differently than others because I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.  Living this faith isn't always accepted by the world or sometimes even the people in the church. So many out there are struggling with their own testimonies and their own beliefs on what's real. Satan is destroying families and deceiving others so that they are pulling away from Christ. I don't want to be one of them.
These past few months, I have fallen short and my faith hasn't been as strong as it used to be or should be and I've got to change that. I need to make sure the spirit is with me every day and do the things that will only strengthen my faith and bring me closer to my Savior.